As Salaamu Alaykum, Dear Mufti Sahib, I agree that I have an OCD problem and I believe that is related to me fearing whether I have done kufr, I am trying to stay away from Waswasa. One thing is that at times when I am unsure and I really want clarification from people who know if I know not,

One thing today was that I was watching a podcast where non Muslim mentioned to Muslim that an artist urinated on picture cross or something like that and took a pic and mentioned a rude word.

I wasn’t watching the video but a thought came that I wonder if the Muslim laughed but I think I rejected this and I looked at the Muslim. I feared if I looked at the screen to see if he laughed or not, then I feared that did I think a Muslim would disrespect Prophet Isa and following from that, I had a thought about that you know Prophet Isa didn’t go on the cross so is your fear of the Muslim laughing indirectly
saying Prophet Isa was on the cross but I think what I feared was that this artist called his pic, that being a rude word followed by the word Christ.

I have not read The Shahaadah in the sense of believing I have committed kufr but I wanted to ask what should I do in these situations where I am not sure? What would you say about this scenario?

My fear about seeing a therapist is that what I fear is falling into disbelief and I think the people to ask about that are the Scholars and a non Muslim/non Scholar therapist won’t be as qualified as a Scholar. I don’t really fully know of how to go about trying to find someone local to speak about all my fears and these scenarios so I resort to Q&A’s. Most of my teachers if not all at the moment are not actually local. Please advise me Mufti Sahib.