Q: I made a request and alhamdullilah it was granted. When I performed istikhara each time I asked I got a negative answer. I asked Allah for a sign and I recieved a message on my phone from Quran Messenger that hardly sends videos and texts… “oh you who believe remain stationed” My heart sank again I asked and the same I received. I asked again and another ayat… “and your Lord is going to give you and you will be satisfied” then I would ask again and another ayat “verily with hardship…”
While walking and that moment I would meet someone who would say… “it will get better and Allah will make it easy”… I’m not sure because I’m not a pious person and I don’t believe that I’m special or deserving enough to expect a sign from Allah. I think to myself it could just be a coincidence. Even before I started where I am currently and I made istikhara, a person would say “good luck and Allah make it easy” and I would wonder how he would know that I’m not happy being here.
My heart feels depressed. I’m not sure what I should do but I feel that if Allah wants this for me then I should stay. How do I ease my heart and not be ungrateful or unthankful.
And Allah Ta’ala (الله تعالى) knows best.
Mufti Zakaria Makada
Checked & Approved:
Mufti Ebrahim Salejee (Isipingo Beach)