I have realized that someone did sihr on me and I was influenced by jinn for 2 years. During those two years, I have come to hate my mom for no reason, became ill mannered, lazy, dirty, and rude to my aunts and yet I thought I was the best person in the world. I had commited mistakes and sisn out of ignorance and I would have never done them if sihr wasnt commited on me becuz Im a fairly religious person who is also intelligent. The sihr affected my thinking and I listened to Ruqya Sharia, and now I am beyond grieved and angry at all the mistakes I could have avoided and the suffering I caused my mother and my sins if the person hadnt conducted witchcraft on me. I could have been a much better person and have worshipped Allah more effectively and in a pleasing way, but the sihr ruined my thoughts. I was somewhat insane. I did wrong things but I thought I wasnt doing anything wrong. I thought my bizarre behaviour wasnt normal, and my rude manners was okay. I was like a live animal. Allah wouldnt hold me accountable for all the things I did wrong becuz I was under the influence of sihr, which caused me insanity and I couldnt have thought properly. For example, I one time threw my underwear on the floor and it had some “stains” on it. My mom went berserk, and I thought I did nothing wrong. I thought my mom was just stupid and I was the best and smartest person in the world. ANother example, my mom told me to focus on my studies before anything, and I thought to myself “Pssh, she doesnt know anything. I will make a game instead and make money, get online school, etc. And get out.” Normally, I would have thought that a child must listen to the mother becuz allah commanded us to do so. I would have thought, let me get As first, and then focus on the video game. That way I can prevent my mom from having a heart attack and just in case the game doesnt work.
In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.
It is pleasing to note that you have realized your wrong attitude towards your mother and other family members. Admission of guilt is the first step to reformation. It is also important for us to be cognizant over the wrongs being perpetrated by our own ego and immaturity. When a person grows up, he makes mistakes and learns through that, which makes him an adult and mature. While it may be possible that either opinion could affect the conduct of a person, it is advisable to attribute ones negative behaviour to ones weaknesses in the absence of absolute proof of sihr. That confession will lead you to reform and better yourself. The mind set of better smart etc. is dangerous. Allah says we are created weak and Allah points out some of our natural weaknesses in the Quran. Always be conscious of our weaknesses as that instils humility and humbleness in a person. Focus on what comes out of us when we go to the toilet. How can we pride ourselves when there is always dirt and filth in us?
We advise you to ask for forgiveness from your mother and make up for the wrongs done to her by serving her, be loving and compassionate to her, tell her words of love and kindness and request her to make dua for you. The happiness and the dua of a mother takes a person long way in life.
And Allah Ta’āla Knows Best
Checked and Approved by,
Mufti Ebrahim Desai.