Answered by Shaykh Abdul-Rahim Reasat
Question: Assalamu alaykum
Is it disbelief for a muslim to denounce christianity by thinking within himself that if God had a son that would imply that God has a genital organ like that of human beings and to bring to his mind the exact image of a human genital organ in the context that God would have that if he had a son?
Answer: As-salamu ‘alaykum wa rahmatullah wa barakatuh.
I pray you are well.
Consolation from the Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him and give him peace)
There is nothing to worry about. Finding that you have such thoughts and feelings revolted by them is something which people better than us experienced. Some of the Companions went to the Messenger of Allah and said, ‘We find that we have have thoughts too terrible for us to express!’ He said, ‘Is this really the case?’ ‘Yes!’ they responded, at which he said, ‘That is clear faith!’ (Muslim).
The intent of the hadith is that the disgust at having such thoughts is the appropriate reaction anyone with true faith would have. In fact, the advice of the great Moroccan saint, Mawlana al-Arabi al-Darqawi, is for you to actually feel happy when you have such thoughts (al-Rasaʾil al-Darqawiyya).
Why, you ask? Such thoughts originate from the Devil. He is envious of all humans – especially those who believe in Allah. This is faith that makes you loath these thoughts is a ticket to a place where there is no pain, no sadness, no loneliness, no fatigue, no effort, even: Paradise. Allah has promised it to all believers.
This is why you should be happy. Thanking Allah for your faith will help you much more than worrying about whether it is a sin. If you can’t control a thought you are not questionable for it. Do this and they should disappear.
What to do if they persist
If you do not find any improvement then you should look into some from of therapy, such as those mentioned in this answer. Intrusive thoughts are a form of O.C.D. which can be treated.
May Allah give you the best of both worlds.
Wassalam,
[Shaykh] Abdul-Rahim Reasat