Answered by Ustadh Tabraze Azam
Question: Assalam alaikum
I have sudden doubts about Allah and His Essence. I end up responding each time I’m facing these insinuating whispers until I become confused with my own belief. I am saddened by this problem. Am I a disbeliever?
What you are describing is true faith. Rejoice, and don’t let the devil fool you.
Please see the following: What is the Ruling For Someone Who Has Thoughts of Disbelief Without Saying Them Aloud? and: How Do I Combat Thoughts of Disbelief That Enter My Mind? and: Tormented by Thoughts of Disbelief
And Allah Most High alone knows best.
[Ustadh] Tabraze Azam
Checked and Approved by Shaykh Faraz Rabbani
Ustadh Tabraze Azam was born and raised in Ipswich, England, a quiet town close to the east coast of England. His journey for seeking sacred knowledge began when he privately memorized the entire Qur’an in his hometown at the age of 16. He also had his first experience in leading the tarawih (nightly-Ramadan) prayers at his local mosque. Year after year he would continue this unique return to reciting the entire Quran in one blessed month both in his homeland, the UK, and also in the blessed lands of Shaam, where he now lives, studies and teaches.