Q: I am suffering from waswas for long time my problem is whatever I do I feel like I am committing shirk but I know those things are not considered as shirk in Islam but I make up to that condition … I manage to control this problem until last month .. before one month when I was going through the internet read an Quran verse that states if we do anything against Allahs wish it’s shirk .. the thing that came to my mind is talking one of my friend and lecturer at my college.. so I searched in the internet to make sure that is not shirk after that I got to know that is not shirk but after that I felt like I was ready to commit that sin even that was shirk then I stopped talking to that person after I talked to some People they said it’s not shirk I can talk as normal after that I started to talked to that person then again a thought came I was ready to commit shirk and am comparing this person to Allah then again I stopped talking told that that person I won’t be talking because of theses issues and when I was talking I felt like even talking in that time was also shirk then after that I felt like that time I was commit shirk with the mind set of asking forgiveness from Allah and stop tailing to her. But I did not accept it as a shirk .. after that thoughts came even it’s is not shirk why am not stoping it that mean am giving more important to her am vomiting shirk .. at last one Maulavi said these are not shirk . But still I was confused and asked him that can I ask thawba if I have committed any shirk without knowing and talk to that person as normal .. he said its sin but yeah u can .. aftr that I asked tawba about lots of time and starts talk to her but still those thoughts are comming . I know this is sin and it is not permissible in Islam but is it shirk if I talk to that girl with this doubts and confusion I am not thinking her equal to Allah but still am confused.. in my mind some time I was like am ready to commit shirk in my heart I am giving important I Don’t care even it’s shirk these kinds of thoughts are coming but am not thinking anything equal to Allah every thing is below Allah but am not sure what am doing or thinking in my heart … so with these mind set I asked tawba too many times … but still am confused … did I commit shirk in this story anywhere or is it shirk to talk to that person with that thoughts or do I have to ignore thoughts as waswas and do my works and is there is a way to ask tawba if I have done any shirk and is it shirk to talk after I ask tawba please help me to understand this is a sin will it become shirk because of theses thoughts ???? Am suffering from problem more than a month ? Please tell is it shirk. ??
And Allah Ta’ala (الله تعالى) knows best.
Mufti Ebrahim Salejee (Isipingo Beach)
This answer was collected from MuftiOnline.co.za, where the questions have been answered by Mufti Zakaria Makada (Hafizahullah), who is currently a senior lecturer in the science of Hadith and Fiqh at Madrasah Ta’leemuddeen, Isipingo Beach, South Africa.