Question: When I first converted, I felt really close to Allah. Now that I have sinned I feel distant, even though I have repented? What should I do?
Answer:
Wa alaykum assalam wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh,
Dear questioner,
Thank you for your important question.
It is normal to go through spells of feeling distant from Allah. Sometimes when we feel close, we lower our standards, so Allah keeps us coming closer to Him but making us feel that we are far. It hurts but change always hurts.
Just repent, stick to what is permissible, work on key recommended actions like recommended prayers and reciting the Qur’an regularly, and just keep moving. Remember: we don’t worship feelings. We worship Allah.
Please also see:
https://seekersguidance.org/answers/islamic-belief/how-do-i-grow-closer-to-allah/
https://seekersguidance.org/articles/hadith-articles/drawing-closer-allah-shaykh-abdal-hakim-murad/
https://seekersguidance.org/articles/prophetic-guidance/ten-steps-to-allah-step-10-supplication/
I pray this helps.
[Ustadh] Farid
Checked and Approved by Shaykh Faraz Rabbani
Ustadh Farid Dingle has completed extensive years of study in the sciences of the Arabic language and the various Islamic Sciences. During his studies, he also earned a CIFE Certificate in Islamic Finance. Over the years he has developed a masterful ability to craft lessons that help non-Arabic speakers gain a deep understanding of the language. He currently teaches courses in the Arabic Language