My fast continues to break due to stupid reasons. I follow Hanafi Fiqh and according to Hanafi Mafhab, even accidentally eating/drinking breaks my fast. This results in waswasa and hardship for me.
Either I see blood when I spit (due to torn lips because they get dry from fasting) or I find eating leftovers from suhur when spitting (no matter how much I brush my teeth and rinse my mouth thereafter) or I wake up and find salvia next to me and on my mouth and it is nearly unavoidable that I will swallow some of the salvia which already had seperated from my mouth when sleeping.
But what botheres me most is that already twice now when praying I suddenly felt sth. like a hair near my throat which I couldn’t remove (May have gotten there when showering). So since it drove me cracy and I didnt know what to do i just tried to swallow it in both cases. Would this be concidered intentionally eating and require kaffara (60 days fasting)? I mean, I didnt put it there but I intentionally tried to swallow it. But then again, what else should I have done? I really couldn’t remove it since I was in Salah and it was too far behind near my throat. Could I just disregard it as waswasa? Even though the feeling was quite strong and I don’t now what else it should have been if not a hair? And even if it wasn’t a hair, wouldn’t the intention to swallow this supposed hair be enough to break the fast and require kaffara?
All of this makes me depressed and takes away everything which should be beautiful about this Month. I really don’t want to do Qada of all these days and I couldn’t take having to fast 60 days in a row because of the hair incident which I described. I really try my best but can’t avoid things like this.
Please help me with this. May Allah reward you