As salaam u alaikum Mufti Sahab,
I am a 40 year old male . My life history has been up and down as far as deen is concerned. I have been falling prey to sins like watching haram and bad thoughts and chatting etc. I do understand that these are bad but somehow fall prey to them. But i also understand that these are bad, i also pray atleast 3 – 5 times a day.
I also have a problem that when i go to bathroom, after instinja , i feel few drops come out after some time. I try to sit in the bathroom for as long as possible but i have developed a work around but covering the private part with tissue and coming out. Later before wudu i wash the private part. Is this an acceptable work around or should i sit and try to take out the last drop?
My major problem is that when i am in salat i do not have khushu and khuzu. Moreover i notice that the persons standing next to me are disturbed due to me in their namaz. I notice clearly that they are feeling uncomfortable and i get this feeling that i am not serious about my namaz. I get this feeling that i do it to show off or to gain worldly benefits.
Please help with these matters asap. Please do not post my name on website
Jazakh Allah khair
الجواب وبالله التوفيق
First of all, you should make firm and resolute intention to stop engaging in such heinous acts and continue on doing tawba and astaghfar.
1- It is correct to place the tissue as you have mentioned however you should wash the private part before performing wudhu.
2- You should pray salah with utmost dedication and concentrate on the actions you are performing.
واللہ اعلم بالصوا