According to our understanding, you are a female. If our understanding is
correct, then we wish to point out that it is Haraam (strictly prohibited)
for a girl to have a boyfriend.
The feeling and inclination towards the boy in reference is against Islamic
values of shame and modesty. You should guard yourself against such evils,
or else you will become the playground for the Shaytaan, who will whisper
evil dreams in you as you have seen and instil fear in you as you are
Sister, keep your heart, mind and soul clear from all such evils. The love
and recognition of Allah followed by peace and contentment enters into pure
souls and hearts.
and Allah Ta’ala Knows Best
Mufti Ebrahim Desai