What does this dream mean for me, considering my conflicting desires and values?

I saw a dream before ishraq time I was wandering outside my work place at a library. I met a girl. I went clubbing. I drank with her for the first time. We were out having a good time. I also met my brother who seemed confused seeing me like this. I also was just hanging out with the girl acting like a westerner, even though I despise them publicly in tabligh etc. I have a beard and go on tabligh often. I attend a western university there are so many fitnah in these environments. The dream seems like I am living what I deeply desire just partying with girls. In the dream, I am worried about my parents when I am outside at night. What does this mean it has got me worried because of how vivid this dream is and it seems like I can easily accomplish this type of life. I even had my beard in the dream. I was in the streets of downtown that I am familiar with.