In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.
As-salāmu ‘alaykum wa-rahmatullāhi wa-barakātuh.
We are happy to know that you want to live a virtuous life and abstain from sins. As long as a person is alive, the doors of repentance are open. Allah ta’ala has forbidden men and women from casting gazes at members of the opposite gender who are outside of one’s family. A relationship with someone outside of wedlock is undoubtedly impermissible. You should sincerely repent to Allah ta’ala and break all connections with the man you had unlawful relations with. Now that you want to marry a man the lawful way, request a member of your family, or a trustworthy female friend to find a suitable match for you.
If you want to live a religious life and abstain from sins, you should marry a man who has the same agenda of living a religious life. Marrying someone who is not religious can cause further complications in your life. We make Dua that Allah makes the situation easy, and keeps you away from sins.
And Allah Ta’āla Knows Best
Zakariya Memon
Student Darul Iftaa
Chatham, Canada
Checked and Approved by,
Mufti Ebrahim Desai.
Daruliftaa.net