I was proposed by someone in family. Infact his family was interested in me, the brother was too but then he married off with a sis of his choice later on.same happened with me again, another brother proposal mum side family, ended off with another girl of his family choice. I wd like to explain a little abt myself now i did handover all those decisions to ALLAH.
I wasnt in love wid anyone ALHAMDOLILLAH. their family played wid my emotions as being a girl i was like; i will get married there BUT still I wasnt upset for tht brothers as I knew Allah is the best of Planners, there is goodness for me. BUT I felt rejected and degraded, thereafter i made dua against them tht they may suffer in life (with khair) and they may THINK abt me.
I found a (wazifa) ZIKR OF dua/need accomplishment which was to be done a set of days. I did that. BUT I asked Allah. May they cry and realize that they have rejected a nice life partner. I asked Allah to put love and respect in their hearts for me. may they live a contended life but they should realize the fact tht they should have considered me.they have done wrong by nt listening to their parents.
I also asked Allah that give them sabr too after that realizations. . Means I didnt want their destruction I wanted them to realize that I am not a girl to be rejected. now I am engaged by the Grace of Allah Almighty. I am thankful to Allah for everything. But I have heard recently tht they are struggling in life and one has left his home and is in financial problems. I got scared of my Dua now which I have made against them. Now I think i have done grave mistake for which I am scared i will be punished. I did all tht wid right intentions.
I wasnt down to earth nor i could overlook a matter at that time as i do sabr now biznillah. I rely and trust in Allah. I know His plannings and timings are according to HIS will. BT I am v afraid. Is there any way to apolpogise? will Allah forgive me if i do istighfar or i shud ask that brothers? I never loved them nor i wanted to see them in this condition. now i regret. is there any way out? my duas with them. WIll it leave some effects on my life or my to be husband? i am v contended with this life partner ALHAMDOLILLAH. I dont want Allah to punish me.
P.S. Wht about my wazifa which was very strong and I asked Allah with depths of my heart that time. what can I do abt that wazifa now?? how can I take that back?
In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.
As-salāmu ‘alaykum wa-rahmatullāhi wa-barakātuh.
As believers we should wish well for everyone.
We understand the pain and emotions you experienced. Now that you are engaged, make shukr to Allah Ta’ala and make Dua for your peace and happiness. It is possible Allah saved you from some calamity through the refusals of the previous marriages.
Allah Ta’ala says,
وَعَسَىٰ أَن تَكْرَهُوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ خَيْرٌ لَّكُمْ ۖ وَعَسَىٰ أَن تُحِبُّوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ شَرٌّ لَّكُمْ ۗ وَاللَّهُ يَعْلَمُ وَأَنتُمْ لَا تَعْلَمُونَ
“and it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know.” Al-Baqarah 216)
And Allah Ta’āla Knows Best
Student Darul Iftaa
Checked and Approved by,
Mufti Ebrahim Desai.