What should I do to repent? I am truly remorseful and feel so guilty.

I got married to my husband at …. While he was in his current country, I was here in …. We used to talk a lot on skype but recently we hadnt been and I was feeling lonesome. So I started talking to this guy on a messaging website. We talkied a lot and I started having bad feelings for him and I felt guilty but I still talked. It started getting sexual. And Now i feel so remorseful. I am still with my husabnd. I doscontinued talking to the other man and am with my husband now. I cannot not tell him what happened. I truly love my husband and will forever strive to mAke him happy til death. But this is a huge burden on my shoulder. I cannot tell him. I want to seek forgiveness from Allah Ta Alah and try to save myself from hellfire. Please what should I do to repent. I am truly remorseful and feel so guilty. Please help. Jazakh Allah

Answer

In the Name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

As-salāmu ‘alaykum wa-rahmatullāhi wa-barakātuh.

You acknowledge having committed a wrong and you regret it. That is a sign of your Imaan, Allah consciousness of accountability in the court of Allah Taala.

Turn to Allah. Make tawbah and never repeat the sin again.

 

It is not clear to us whether you are actually staying with your husband or not. If you are still apart, make every effort to be together as soon as possible.

 

In that situation maintain more regular contact with your husband to satisfy your feminine needs through him and avert the whispers of Shaitaan.

 

And Allah Ta’āla Knows Best

Huzaifah Deedat

Student Darul Iftaa
Lusaka, Zambia 

Checked and Approved by,
Mufti Ebrahim Desai.